I think I dont need a boyfriend, Without one, I can be better alone.

I am tall enough, even there is no seat on bus, I can hold on handles, no need boyfriend to hold on me.

I am strong enough, can take big bag small bad of things, no need boyfriend to help.

My clothes is warm enough, no need boyfriend's jacket.

My clothes my pants got pocket, no need scared no place to put hand.

I have a bunch of good friends, even weekend no date also can shop with them until late.

Without boyfriend, I can play computer until late, nobody nag to tell me sleep early.

Without boyfriend, I can eat anything I want, no need worried if fat people will dont like.

Without boyfriend, I can chat with boy de friends and go out alone with them.

Without boyfriend, I will have a lot time to study and play computer.

I no need a boyfriend, I can be better alone. 

When we first met, I never thought that you will be so important to me one day :)

Learn to walk alone.

Future de road still very long, have to walk alone.
When one person neglect ourselves, dont be sad, everyone have their own lifes, nobody can always be with us.
Dont let someone or something become your whole world.
No matter with who, to who, friend or strangers, we have to learn to smile even when we are sad.
Everyone is selfish, dont wish for people being good to us for nothing.
When a person not worth our good, learn to give up.
We have to cherishing things that we have to, it could be our whole life pains and regret if we lose it.
We thought we havent grow up, but other people are not taking us as a child.
Time can change a lot of things, a person, a feeling.
When we see other people is laughing, dont think the whole world only we are sad. Is other people are better hiding their feelings then us.

Sad, seems there is no one I trust to talk to.

Old friends.

Suddenly remember old friends, press the link to old friends blog, and it appear, 
"It doesn't look like you have been invited to read this blog. If you think this is a mistake, you might want to contact the blog author and request an invitation."
I stunned, and then nothing. 
Some people, will always slowly fade out your world, slowly become blur in your memories. 
Because of time, because of distance, because of no contact.
On facebook, A lot of people rather chat with strangers then with old friends.
Dont know what to chat about dont know where to start. Over time, slowly getting further and further.
Even though once very familiar with, but now is just like have something between us. On facebook chat only left "How are you?" and " I am fine." nothing more.
Facebook online for a very long time, seeing so many friends online but only staring at the computer, doing nothing, just because dont know what to chat about.
How long did I not text with them?
How long did I otp with them?
And how long did we gather together?
Some people, we met each other, know each other, understand each other, even though we have each other contact. Even though we once say forever friends, best friend forever. But years after, look at those albums, maybe still have to think who that guy is. Remember or not, when the album is closed, the person is already not in my life.
But friends who can keep contact forever and the feelings still havent change, I can say is, lucky.
In the deep of my memories, still have the shadows of primary school best friend.
She, that time is the one who I think is my forever soulmate.
I already not the old me.
Sometimes still have to ask, are you XXXX ?
What makes everybody further distance?
What makes everybody seem cold?
What makes once best friend nothing to chat about now?


Time, Distance, No contact... is feelings biggest enemy.
Still remember those friends?
Are they okay?
How is studies? 
Change to what character already?
Still like the past like this like that mah?
But I afraid these already leave you very far away.

Girls can be this strong.

I have to learn to face this cruel world alone, and be strong.
I can let myself addicted to bad things for only a while. I still have dreams, tomorrow will still come.
I dont purposely go after things anymore. If it is mine, it will be back someday.
Sad, hurted, will stay alone quietly, wont shed tears infront of anybody.
Be more generous, give your smile to everybody, even there is despair behind it.
Dont explain to anybody, even they mistaken.
Facing people who hurts us before, just give them a smile and left, wont hate, too tired, and also wont love, it doesnt worth.
Facing people who like us, I treat them good, cause every person who pays should get their returns.
People who betrays, i wont blame them, maybe he really have reasons, but thats the end.
People who left me and return, I will ignore them, cause it wont be the same anymore.
People I cant make them stay I will let go, because I cant give them happiness they want.
Like someone no need to say out, care for him thats enough.
Fall down nobody help, I climb myself up, sad nobody care, I tell myself to be strong, cry nobody dote, I wipe my own tears off.
Can forgive, can dont care, can give up, can forget, but cannot dont love ourself.
I can try for a person, but wont change myself for that person.
Just remember everything we do is for our ownself, dont complain。

谢谢你给我的希望，都是那么的让人绝望

每个女孩的通病。

Sometimes, feel bad mood,dont want to talk to anybody, just want to be alone.

Sometimes, suddenly feel irritated, see everything also not good, feel something stuck at heart.

Sometimes, found that nobody understand myself well, looking at the person around, suddenly feel that nothing to say.

Sometimes, feel that I cant be fit into this world, things that I been hold for so long change over a night time.

Sometimes, feel like run away from the life now, wanted to packed a bag and walk all around.

Sometimes, wish time can stop for me, and be with the person i like forever.

Sometimes, when feel weak, just want to hide alone, dont want anybody to see the scars.

Sometimes, suddenly feel like crying, but sad until cant cry out.

Sometimes, the feeling when at night alone, loneliness . 

Sometimes, dont know how to express the words that wanted to say out.

Sometimes, feel I have nothing, the world abandon me. 

Sometimes, feel lonely even there is a lot of friends around.

Sometimes, feel very very tired.

Sometimes, feel so grown up.

Sometimes, remind of someone when listen to old songs.

Sometimes, struggle in memories, cant let go of lots of things.

Sometimes, wishing for a care, wishing for a simple happiness.

Sometimes, sometimes.

Girls.