Awhile more to my birthday, to 20th July. I thought i will be excited, happy like fuck. But no, not a single happiness LOL. Weird right :D. Maybe, Maybe because i am growing, becoming and adult. HAHAHA. I am thinking about my past, my memories, the good and bad, happy and unhappy. I will choose to grow up. Because i want to protect those, i cannot protect now the person. Like my mother, in her entire life, she stand on the top and fall to the bottom. I want to protect her and my friends.

Alot of people say before, When they are a child they wish so much to become a adult, to touch those underage cannot touch de. When they started becoming teenager, they wish they go back when they are small, young and no nothing. Pure. Thats the word. I was like that. Thinking why i cant smoke, why cant drink beer, why cant this, why cant that. And then i found out, those adults can do the things, Teenage can, is just want or dont want. It just will destroy your entire life.

快快长大..Joreen.

Dont know why i so piss for -.- . Fake until like this. Scold people also wont go see own mirror.

I'm a liar because I won't tell you everything. I'm stupid because sometimes I'm wrong. I'm ugly because sometimes my face isn't perfect. I'm a pushover because I like making people happy. I'm a loser because I'm not friends with your group. I'm fake because I'm too nice. I'm weird because I'm not like you. I'm fat because I eat when I'm hungry. I'm clingy because I don't like to be alone.Im sorry for being myself.

Actually, I am not sorry at all.

I dont know but it seems life a dream..No, Nightmare. My dream, my everything is gone. Now. Gone. Gone.Gone. Not sad at all, at start cry, but after that no, no nothing at all. The feeling is like despair. Already no hope. Why sad for ? :D . HAHA.

A memory last forever, never does it die.

Andand, I super hate bitches who status keep emoemo, say they slit here slit there, cry here cry there, want die want die like that. Ya, i did write those kind of status to get attention before, but now i then see how discusting, fake, i was before. And juniors from primary school asking me who i stead before, her stead, still say she P4 stead with a guy from french then french kiss with him -.- Like very show off like that. Fake. Get a life la bitch. And some people there jealous because of her boyfriend somehow "closer" to me like that. Although I never talk to the girl before -.- Gossip here gossip there. Younger then me so what, knn. My patience got limit. If you jealous you talk to yourself, no need go tell your "sister" . And gossip around like i want steal your boyfriend.