HAPPY 4TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY

I thought we already go on for years. Haha, time go really slow. I never leave you again.

K can. Iloveyou. Dont leave me hor you bastard.

你成了我生命中不可或缺的人 
不管过程多艰难请你坚持下去好吗
不管我任性多放肆请你多体谅好吗 
不管我生气多难搞你多包容好吗 
不管我生气多闹腾你哄哄我好吗 
我真的好爱你 
所以请你别放开我的手好吗

Can all the shyts fuck off my life. 

I think so.

Hey guys, long time no update blog. Haha, having busy life :) Well, It have been a tough life for me. Miserable life for me. I am glad I harden my heart. Because of that girl, I got these stupid things that make me miserable. Not that I hate you, or dislike you. I just dont wish to give up everything I had because of you. You not my who you know. I dont have the resposiblity to take care of you and dont have the needs to be friend with you. You see, without you I am okay. And I started to let go of keep wanting a guy to be friends with me just like the past, I cant force him to treat me as friend after those things yah. And really cant judge people by looks or their behaviour, you never know what they are thinking inside their heart. So scary so dark. Not that I like very nice like that lah. I not nice k HAHA.

And I am in love with a stupid pig. (Random, Opps HAHA.)

Oh and I lost my phone XD, and then kena confiscate by teacher another phone. Damn suey I swear. But... Whatever. Cried a lot today, for about one and a half hour. I not going to say why I cry, thats damn embarassing LOL. And then Monday start exam already, and I still havent study in any shits. Chinese first. Need to memorize sibeh lots things. I wish my gb enough in my brain.

Anyways, stress a lot this week. Dont think I dont know you saying me K. Like a F u c k. Dare say say infront of me please. You say behind me I shy ley dey. Say me kum lan, can eat meh. I dont need friends that backstabb people from behind. Keep your ugly mask and screw off tyvm. Seriously how many people can i trust in this school lah siah. Whatever.

I miss EVELYN OW so much like I can cry T.T

Pathetic Life.

I am scared. Dont know why but scared, k maybe I know why but I dont want to say. Own self there anyhow think.

Birthdayyyyyyyyy ~~~!!!!

TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY YEAP . 20TH JULY.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME :D THANKS TO EVERYONE ESPECIALLY THE FIRST ONE WHO WISH ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY ^^

I am happy :) Cause a lot a lot people wish me happy birthday beside from Facebook.

And he is so cute.~~ Lalalalalalalala.

>< No birthday song then tell me blow candles already :(
Not memorable de~ But still happy lah.

I at EE house, writing this post. Didnt go home this week, cause didnt want to trouble family to fetch me or what.
Mood yesterday night was very upset, sad. Maybe is my fault K can.

Birthday wish

Actually didnt want to blog but I am scared alone at home wanted to find something to do so lets blog :)

My biggest wish is having nice good memories on my birthday I dont want forget.

^^ Oh and I cut my fringe, bangs AGAIN (The second time, I still can remember that time short hair bangs likea weird). Is likea cheap only. 3rm ? :O

Okay, just like this. Wish my sister faster come back fetch me go eat korean food. Whole day only eat a bowl of rice leyyyy. ~

PS: #Nowplaying All around the world.

Seventh Day

No tears come out anymore, is it I too cold-blooded or what. Guess the next time I went to see you is on 100th day.

Got my overall marks. It didnt make me any better after she said she forget ask my subjects marks and got the overall from other people. For two days I text you, you even dont fucking reply then now say forgot? I want my subjects mark. Maybe you think I disiao you? K can, I wont ask for your help next time, dont you fucking ask for mine too. Very upset.

Tomorrow going back school dorm, kinda lonely feel. Anyways, I going start eating only vegetables and rice le. No meat. Totally no meat.

Looking forward to next Saturday, meeting my dearest OWOW :D Miss her lots.

I have a lot things want to say but I dont know what to say.

我有千言万语要讲
可是不知道怎样说出口.

我会想你的.
我会把你放在心里的.

下辈子投胎还要做兄妹.

Suddenly wanted to post this picture, look so nicey. ^^
The one who post the status is my second sister.
The one who comment first is my Big sister, it is a song lyrics.
The one who comment second is meeeeee, the lyrics after my Natalie Koh's one.:DD
Likea so cute. Three Koh's .

We never had a picture together before. ;sob ;sob . 

Anyways, is nice :P 

We are bloooooooooooood sister. 

WOOOHHOOOO. 

I still got two brother well, they are not girls. 

HAHA :D .

I look so young wearing specs ;shy. Yeah I should be young I am just 14+ blahblah. 

and saying about age, I have one thing to say, 

DUDE I AM 14 

Seriously? To all those fucking people who say I look more then 20years old, FUCK YOU .

YES, FUCK YOU. 

I dont mind people say I look mature or 2,3 years older my actual age, or looking older then my sister (She has baby face)but saying over 20 or 20 years old? I hate it man. Even you think so, why dont keep it to yourself, need tell others meh? Not one woman will like people say they look more older then their actual age. Faggot siah. 

What? Your life very miserable is it, using words to "hurt" (It didnt hurt me, it piss me off.) people fun ah. 

THANK YOU VERY MUCHY :) 

I never know I can smile so natural and look nice in photos LOL. K kinda bhb. Anyways, guess because my girlfriend was beside me so I can be so happy, :D.

EVELYN OW, I LOVE YOU SO MUCHY :D ACT CUTE PHOTO (: I will never find a girl like you again :( So friends forever kay? 

Actually is not you who make me cant forget, but the feelings you gave me.

And then I remember E3 so sudden.
I miss we.
I miss so hard that it hurts :(
朋友，我们回到过去好不好，好不好?

Clown.

There is a clown, one day he perform on stage, he fall of the stage.

He broke many teeths, and cover with blood all over his face, all the people are laughing, saying that this clown make it very real, very epic.

Only one child pull her mother and say,"Mummy, Clown is crying."

Nobody listen , not one. 

Is it a sad story? I dont know, cause different people have different view to it. People who are laughing so much, smiling so much, seems happy one, are just like the crown. I respect this kind of people, they try to cheer people out try to make people smile, try to be happy. But who will see the tears behind those happy mask? 

Who will actually appreciate them? Who will actually remember them after the show, after all the laughter the clown gave? 

No one, fuck this shit. 

I think I dont need a boyfriend, Without one, I can be better alone.

I am tall enough, even there is no seat on bus, I can hold on handles, no need boyfriend to hold on me.

I am strong enough, can take big bag small bad of things, no need boyfriend to help.

My clothes is warm enough, no need boyfriend's jacket.

My clothes my pants got pocket, no need scared no place to put hand.

I have a bunch of good friends, even weekend no date also can shop with them until late.

Without boyfriend, I can play computer until late, nobody nag to tell me sleep early.

Without boyfriend, I can eat anything I want, no need worried if fat people will dont like.

Without boyfriend, I can chat with boy de friends and go out alone with them.

Without boyfriend, I will have a lot time to study and play computer.

I no need a boyfriend, I can be better alone. 

When we first met, I never thought that you will be so important to me one day :)

Learn to walk alone.

Future de road still very long, have to walk alone.
When one person neglect ourselves, dont be sad, everyone have their own lifes, nobody can always be with us.
Dont let someone or something become your whole world.
No matter with who, to who, friend or strangers, we have to learn to smile even when we are sad.
Everyone is selfish, dont wish for people being good to us for nothing.
When a person not worth our good, learn to give up.
We have to cherishing things that we have to, it could be our whole life pains and regret if we lose it.
We thought we havent grow up, but other people are not taking us as a child.
Time can change a lot of things, a person, a feeling.
When we see other people is laughing, dont think the whole world only we are sad. Is other people are better hiding their feelings then us.

Sad, seems there is no one I trust to talk to.

Old friends.

Suddenly remember old friends, press the link to old friends blog, and it appear, 
"It doesn't look like you have been invited to read this blog. If you think this is a mistake, you might want to contact the blog author and request an invitation."
I stunned, and then nothing. 
Some people, will always slowly fade out your world, slowly become blur in your memories. 
Because of time, because of distance, because of no contact.
On facebook, A lot of people rather chat with strangers then with old friends.
Dont know what to chat about dont know where to start. Over time, slowly getting further and further.
Even though once very familiar with, but now is just like have something between us. On facebook chat only left "How are you?" and " I am fine." nothing more.
Facebook online for a very long time, seeing so many friends online but only staring at the computer, doing nothing, just because dont know what to chat about.
How long did I not text with them?
How long did I otp with them?
And how long did we gather together?
Some people, we met each other, know each other, understand each other, even though we have each other contact. Even though we once say forever friends, best friend forever. But years after, look at those albums, maybe still have to think who that guy is. Remember or not, when the album is closed, the person is already not in my life.
But friends who can keep contact forever and the feelings still havent change, I can say is, lucky.
In the deep of my memories, still have the shadows of primary school best friend.
She, that time is the one who I think is my forever soulmate.
I already not the old me.
Sometimes still have to ask, are you XXXX ?
What makes everybody further distance?
What makes everybody seem cold?
What makes once best friend nothing to chat about now?


Time, Distance, No contact... is feelings biggest enemy.
Still remember those friends?
Are they okay?
How is studies? 
Change to what character already?
Still like the past like this like that mah?
But I afraid these already leave you very far away.

Girls can be this strong.

I have to learn to face this cruel world alone, and be strong.
I can let myself addicted to bad things for only a while. I still have dreams, tomorrow will still come.
I dont purposely go after things anymore. If it is mine, it will be back someday.
Sad, hurted, will stay alone quietly, wont shed tears infront of anybody.
Be more generous, give your smile to everybody, even there is despair behind it.
Dont explain to anybody, even they mistaken.
Facing people who hurts us before, just give them a smile and left, wont hate, too tired, and also wont love, it doesnt worth.
Facing people who like us, I treat them good, cause every person who pays should get their returns.
People who betrays, i wont blame them, maybe he really have reasons, but thats the end.
People who left me and return, I will ignore them, cause it wont be the same anymore.
People I cant make them stay I will let go, because I cant give them happiness they want.
Like someone no need to say out, care for him thats enough.
Fall down nobody help, I climb myself up, sad nobody care, I tell myself to be strong, cry nobody dote, I wipe my own tears off.
Can forgive, can dont care, can give up, can forget, but cannot dont love ourself.
I can try for a person, but wont change myself for that person.
Just remember everything we do is for our ownself, dont complain。

谢谢你给我的希望，都是那么的让人绝望

每个女孩的通病。

Sometimes, feel bad mood,dont want to talk to anybody, just want to be alone.

Sometimes, suddenly feel irritated, see everything also not good, feel something stuck at heart.

Sometimes, found that nobody understand myself well, looking at the person around, suddenly feel that nothing to say.

Sometimes, feel that I cant be fit into this world, things that I been hold for so long change over a night time.

Sometimes, feel like run away from the life now, wanted to packed a bag and walk all around.

Sometimes, wish time can stop for me, and be with the person i like forever.

Sometimes, when feel weak, just want to hide alone, dont want anybody to see the scars.

Sometimes, suddenly feel like crying, but sad until cant cry out.

Sometimes, the feeling when at night alone, loneliness . 

Sometimes, dont know how to express the words that wanted to say out.

Sometimes, feel I have nothing, the world abandon me. 

Sometimes, feel lonely even there is a lot of friends around.

Sometimes, feel very very tired.

Sometimes, feel so grown up.

Sometimes, remind of someone when listen to old songs.

Sometimes, struggle in memories, cant let go of lots of things.

Sometimes, wishing for a care, wishing for a simple happiness.

Sometimes, sometimes.

Girls. 

Old times, dont leave me alone.

Life is not complicated when young. How innocent and pure that time.
A can of soft drinks will already make us easily satisfied.
A dollar of noodles, a dollar of ice-cream.
Everyday will be thinking how our hands get dirty.
Forever no bored times, have endless games. Jumping rope, Tic tac toe, Scissors paper stone, can play more then thousand times without getting bored.
Scared of teachers, scared of parents, scared of schoolmates saying " I go complain."
Never get tired, always will be proud of helping teacher.
When fall down, cant climb up, cry for long time but no tears out.
After exam dont dare bring home let parents sign, then try to forge parent signature.
At home, parents say what wont do what. At school, even teacher dont say, ownself will do everything right.
Will use ball point pen to draw a watch on wrist and time.
Never use finished a eraser, either lost or being cut into pieces.
When young, we always thought that Maggie noodles is always just like the picture on the cover, until grow up then understand picture is only for reference.
When young, after school will do finish all the homework then go play. When grow up, homework always copy from other people.
When young, watch television until 9am will already go sleep. Now, until 12am, 1am face computer still dont want go sleep.
When young, friends number will memorize to the heart. Now, go through the contact lists, how many people's number we can memorize?
When young, we just wish to go to school as early as we can, now that we even dont want to go school.
When young, teacher's words are like god's word. Now that teacher's word is like fucking annoying.
When young, having $5 $10 already feel like a rich person, can buy a lot of things, most of them is tibits, with toy inside. 10cent spent until where also can say out. Now even $100 also not enough, eat play wear, sometimes also dont know spent until where.
15 years old, I am still me, no big difference.
When young, know how to draw a better drawing will think being artist is easy. Know how to sing a few songs will think ownself is a singer.Then found out that nobody is listening.
When young, go other people house having lunch dinner, will always pick the food that we love most. Now will be uncomfortable when at other people house.
When young, I thought people and people is just " I dont friend you liao" those kind. Now then I know there is, love, kind,thanks, and betray.
When young, laugh, laugh until stomach pain. Grow up laugh laugh until cry.
When young, the old granny who held my hands, I thought she wont go, until I grow up work hard, she already gone.

When young, our old times is like the same, but also not the same.
My old times, I have so many things havent remember, havent complain.
My old times, Are you okay, are you cold in the memories?
My old times, I really love you, the is me now. I love you, do you recognize me? Are you satisfied with the me now?

My old times, please tell me to be stronger. My old times, I know you never get hurt before, so only you can happily tell me, world is not complicated, I can be strong.

Good bye my old times.

PROMISE IS WHAT.

In Mac now using Laptop.
Fuck siah the women just now, purposely keep sitting on the bloody place with the charge there.
Sister&Friend go Jusco Shopping. Then I tired so stay in MAC. Omg, only 3hour pass and I fucking miss SG liao. :/ Sad.sad.sad.
Dont know when can go back Singapore again. AH. :(

KONY2012

Yesterday morning I was watching some Youtube Videos & link to KONY2012. 

Before watching this video, I have no idea who Kony is or what Kony is. After I watched, I was sad, shock, ah yes. Cause I thought the world I living has no wars or any shit or whatever. I have no idea there is such a cruel, cold blooded guy. 26years of Violence, 30000 children abducted. He actually kidnap children from UGANDA and force them to kill & become sex slaves. I really want to fly to UGANDA I chop this guy into pieces & pieces but I cant. Cause I am only a small little human in this world. What I can donate every dollars a month to them, using my sister's card. XD. 

Kay, Kony I curse you. 2012 is your last year on earth. God bless you, AMEN.

15 FEB EVA'S BDAE

Happy Birthday Eva Koh :> 

14 FEB VALENTINES'DAY TAEJUN'S BDAE

Before heading to Singapore, I quarrel with my sister not less then 10 times, Mygod, she likea dog like that. And keep want to prove mother like her more then like me more. Sibeh fan lah. I dont give a fuck. Then I went to west mall walk around. Pierce helix, I thought it was damn pain, but end up not really pain. Then went bts wait Evelyn. Then Evelyn come out forget take her present for her super glue, then go back, then we went Bdae boy house, Evelyn change clothes.

< UNFINISH >

IFREAKINGMISS-2E3

Just had a fight with Eva. WTF-Man. 

Anyways. Yesterday went to Singapore with Natalie-Dajie. Then went to Budget View Opposite de bts wait for Evelyn. Saw Lincolin, ZhiJun & BoJun. Then went WM de subway with 2E3-girls & BoJun, Royston. Then slack with Evelyn, ZhiJun, Lincolin, David and  Potato at Lakeside. Play Blackjack also. Derrick & Alfred then join in at Evening blahblah. Then its time go back Msia U.U 

Ow : How you go back Msia?

Me : Take MRT to Kranji then take 170 then pass custom then take 170 again and pass a custom again then take 170 again. 

Alfred : How you go back Msia?  

Me :  Take MRT to Kranji then take 170 then pass custom then take 170 again and pass a custom again then take 170 again. 

Alfred : How you go back Msia?  

Me : ...

Somehow like that de conver lah. 

Then take MRT with ZhiJun. Then meet Natalie-Dajie at Kranji then start journey to JB :D .Okay de end. 

SINGAPORE!~

Kay, so wake up in the morning to prepare go Singapore. Reached Singapore about 10:30am. Father stop me at woodland MRT there. I slack around causeway, buy drink look things. Blahblahblah. Then take MRT to Batok. From Batok MRT to Budget View this distance, I walk & rewind my memories. Is like, the Sun so brigh & make my body whole warmwarm de, but the memories make my heart cold siah. Looking back on happy memories will make you cry. Anyways, then wait at bubble tea shop. Qi first to hughughughughug me ^^ . Andand I saw Alamelu talking happily to Sara mungkei yuening they all. ROFL. Then Evelyn fly from opposite HAHA. Actually I quite lazy write liao. Okay anyways, we went Clementi meet Jess, David, Potato, etc etc. Slack around. Then got meet HoongFeng too. Then yeah like this. ERM. HAHAHAHHAHA. Bye.

Whosays

Kay, My sister is a bitch. I mean my second sister. She is a fuckingmotherchibailanjiaobitch. Only know how to use my big sister thing no ask. Know how to say bad things to her friend about family. Also say she scold me to her friend. Bitch niah. Always seat infront of computer no help do housework. Two floors siah, Only me and my big sister do. And selfish bitch. Kay, above is just a random post. Haha. FRIDAY 13th is indeed a suay day. My that thing come on that day >~< . Okay, lalalalalala~ Bye

世界太复杂，单纯很难

The world is too complicated, being innocent is difficult. When did I start to understand this sentence? When I really grew up bah, at Secondary 1. Although sometime I still very childish. I still... dont want grow up ah. If can, time dont go so fast haobuhao? If can, everybody dont change haobuhao? If can, everybody still childish haobuhao? If can, dont grow up haobuhao? If can, dont forget the past haobuhao? If can, dont fight anymore haobuhao? If can, everybody dont leave everybody haobuhao? If can, time rewind haobuhao? FUCK LAH, I GO DREAM JIUHAO.

Knowing you in my life is one of my biggest luck.

Qi宝贝，我爱你，爱着你，就像屁股爱放屁！


Knowing you in my life is one of my biggest luck.

Seeing your post make me very gandong & ;shy. Starting when know you, I like found someone I can talk my interest to. Cause we both like to sing^^. Then starting I treat you like very careful cause I scared 知音 like that dont have．I in love with your voice your cuteness your kindness, and everything~!

I miss you,
I miss those time when in Shenjian class, and the two other teacher also.
I miss those time we sing together.
I miss those time you teach me sing.
I miss those time we chat & laugh together.
I miss every thing we do together.

晓琪，我想念你。
我知道你也想念我XD.

I also will be there for you, forever :) Till I dead or till you forget me :).

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Wrote to 2012 de myself...

【写给2012的自己】
我跟自己说好，要活得真实，不管别人怎么看我，就算全世界否定我，我还有我自己相信我。
我跟自己说好，要过的快乐，无需去想是否有人在乎我，一个人也可以很精彩。
我跟自己说好，悲伤时可以哭的很狼狈，很狼狈，眼泪流干后，要抬起头笑得很漂亮，很漂亮……

First day of 2012

Still havent get used to saying 2012 as this year.

Wake up at 9am today. Went to eat breakfast with Father & Natalie jie. EvaのPig still sleeping. Then after breakfast we go to Super market and buys lots of food, tibits, drinks, chocolate for a week amount. And a extra yogurt & bubble gum for me ^^
Then went home. Played Sim3, then help Natalie jie mop the floor, first & Second floor or I mop de ^^v, I so guai har. Then Dajie prepare dinner. 罗宋汤! I love.
Then just now went to the park play swing with Eva.

PS:嗯，等下去洗澡了！