I really love you.
Love so pain eh...I really love you but you don't believe. Ya, i admit at the start i am only just playing.. But i starting to more and more like you.. Even love you. But you don't believe, it makes me regret, regret at first place i because of lonely fake love you.... You now don't believe me.. You dont give me a chance... Is it the love i gave you make you too tired? 是你给了我希望, 也是你毁了我对你的爱.. I hate you for not giving me a chance, I hate you for all the gentle you gave her, I hate you for making waiting for nothing. I hate you so much. But i love you more... I have once try to give up, try to take other people as you. I tried to like other people. Every night i told myself, I don't love you anymore.. But the more i tell myself, the more i like you. I just can't resist. I really don't understand, is it i don't worth your love? 我到底哪里不好? Should i let go of you? i wish i could.. If you can walk into my heart, You will cry... Because inside my heart there is full of the sadness you gave me.. If i can walk into your heart, I will also cry... Because inside your heart there is full of your don't bother... I am so stupid, I thought i got a chance, I thought you will like me someday.. And it is only my wishful thinking..

Quite busy these days.. I really want to give up.. today have E3 gathering. not much people going >~<. we go LANLANLAN play blackshot & others. quite fun, blackshot :). thats all.

No wound, but heart keep aching. What exactly should i do to make you understand...Everything i do, is because you...are the person i care most?

understand my heart please.

Hongster never die.

only two hours. you got another girlfr. i should be lucky that i didnt put in too much serious. thats all. have a bath today in amy jie house, COLD. 小四, 对不起啦..求你原谅我>~< COCONUT:D anyway, i cant get over him. he dont reply my message, even he know. my heart pain, lala ar lala, when will you reply my message?..

You dont love me.

yeah, i am single. i guess he is not my cup of tea. today went boonlay with jess, go pet shop meet ahkor and cecilia jie. fun? I DRANK 4small cans of coconut drinks and 2 big cans of coconut drinks. i went toilet alot of times. But its okay, you want me drink, i drink :) iloveyou.

Believe or not? believe in myself, i dont know what myself are thinking. how to believe.. if i believe, i have to wait again, if i dont believe, when it happens, i will regret. so.. should i believe or not.

Coconut drink, i am in love with coconut drink. :D 小四, I love you :) . Thanks for being there when i need you, i love you ttm man!

secrets. everyone have. say out, less stress:)

today, okok, meet Evelyn, Jennifer, Cecilia jie, Amy jie, Xavier , and AHKOR. LOL . Fun luhh. I think i trying to forget him le.

My greatest wish? i wish i can fly.

i regret to ask. i am afraid to know the answer but in the same time, i want to know, desperately. i know i get hurt, but i still want to know. stupid right? me. I know. for you, i can do anything. but you just dont understand because you never even try to. boy, you are a bastard.

liar.. you are nothing but a liar. last chance.. you also dont want me to have it. you already stab a hole in my heart, now you stab again. how can you be so cruel?! use this to hurt me you, liar. liar. liar.

I admit, i cant forget you, but you wont be mine, you belongs to someone else. my heart pain you know? you know..? no, you wouldnt know. i sick of being so fake. i am sick of everything. why wont you give me a chance, why? i know i have nothing, nothing to make you like me. you tell me, i can change, i really can! but you dont even give me a chance.. you know what? my heart pains.. alot.

I have a bunch of nice friends :) Evelyn, Jennifer, Rebecca, Dawn, Eugenia, Cherly, Qifang, Aleefa, Joey, XiaoQi, YanFei, Steffi, Claudia, Ziying, Vanessa and lots who have waste their tears on me. I wont go back to malaysia, but.. i will leave that school, i will transfer :) i will visit you all often! one message one text i flew down! i want to say alot of things but i dont know how to express it. I LOVE YOU ALL!! i really do! I will miss you all. do miss me too.

You should have told me earlier. and you have a nice big warm hand :)

i lose, i lose. my future end here. i have nothing left, nothing. you take away my future, my everything. can you give me back?

just back. today, DC area again, but with an extra guy. not really bored liao. some fucking guy say i take his money. which i didnt. i dont care. slack with JJEHFCK at staircase. police come. a uncle report. first time get questioning. nothing happen. went home. i dun like him anymore, serious, i will never like a guy like him anymore, i wont so stupid go hurt myself again. why for? loving such a guy is like jumping in a hole which have no end. and is like in the jumping to the fire, knowing it is death.

i am useless. i am hopeless.