Just come back from school, yeah, i spent my whole day down the DC area. is bored, but i happy i am back. he is avoiding me, why? is you ownself say atleast can be friend, when i give up, when i already give up, you go remove friend from facebook, avoiding me, take me as if i am invisible. i already dont like you ler. is it i cant even be your friend? atleast friend.. i thought. my heart, it is already had a hole, i dont want more.

fake smile. really fake. i miss the old you. if times goes back, will you choose the same person again?

Tomorrow school, my feeling abit confusing, and scared? i scared being expel, i scared i will leave my friends, i scared i cant continue study. if i got one more chance, one more, i swear i will change, change everything i can, change to what the school wants. how i wish i was forever 12. how i wish everything can start all over again, how i wish i was never born.

There is a million things running though my mind.

This one week suspension happens lots thing . Make me feel more clear . I think i will be a good student . i think . i try . i wish . I try not to tio any case from school . I miss going back . i really miss . Anyyways . i dun like him anymore . guess he is too good , i not worth it . yeahh . i know i am not good , i have nothing to make you like me , and i understand . but ... 我不甘心 ! 我不甘心 ! why you can like so many ppl , but not me . yeahh , yarhh , you and me the distance really very farr , i also cant reach you . no point continue like you . you are too good for me .

Rebecca and Hoong feng stead :D .

Jennifer and Sean stead , break next day .

sometimes , things happen tooo fast that you cant even know why , how , when it happens . it just happens . i see how my frens smile slowly fade , how they manage to fixed it back with a fake smile , i want to know , when my frens strted to change . strted to hide . strted to put a mask on their face . and what makes them change . and why it happens ..

Friends ..

I LOVE HIM . YEAH , I LOVE HIM YESSS , I LOVE HIM , YES ! I LOVE HIM :) GOT PROBLEM ?

I am not perfect , but i will keep trying :)

Thursday:

Went go see movie with my father brother and sister , We watch 新少林寺 , the show made me cry , so touching .. This is the nicer movie i ever seen it , actually is only for 18 and above , but In malaysia mah .. who cares .

HELLO GUYs :) LONG TIME NO POST , HAHA . HAPPI NEW YEAR , HAHAs . I will miss him :< 6 days cant see him , haiz . I wish things will get better .

Today , suckzxc man , so fucked up . Someone IN OUR CLASS go sabo me evelyn and jess . PHONE KENA CONFISCATE ! I never even use that phone for three weeks , then nid say bye bye ler , aww . Today i like most is MUSIC,, HEHE . I wont say why , HAHA . LALA .

But ... Heart pain :'C ...