Work ^^

Today very tiredtired :< . Went to Bugis Jiawei's parents shop work. Is quite fun lah. But pissed off. You want say, say infront off me lah. Knn. Thats why I in the first place dont want work with you. I said before, dont see I friendly friendly de, I angry not like human de hor -.- Fuck.
Then After work, I went buy KOI. I order BUBBLE FRESH MILK TEA, 100% SUGAR. But they give me FRESH MILK TEA, 0% SUGAR. T.T Sadddddddd. Wheres my chewing pearls. Then I alone go Bugis street buy new wallet and phone case ^^,, . Then buy Sushi, carrot cake go home.
Just now watching the MAMA thingy ^^. Too bad cant see SHINee. T..T

Onew ~ Taemin ~ Jonghyun ~ Minho ~ Key .

That its ^^.

PS: Will be uploading pictures tomorrow.

28th November 2011
Went to meet Hui Ling in the morning :) Miss her lots. We went to eat breakfast, and chat alot things. Then we go Beauty World to buy her clothes for the next day CCA band thingy. We then go Westmall slack around, argh. Buybuy, eateat. Then meet her friend Zen. Then we go eat lunch together ^^,, Sibeh full, then we went frolick eateat! Hohohoho. Strawberries+Oreo. WOOHOO. After that, We went all the fucking way to Pasir Ris, go sell tooth brush door by door, fucking hot. Earn little money, kaykay lah ;D. Then went home. THE END. LOL.

Monday, 21 November, 2011











Sunday, 20 November, 2011

This picture last week take de.

Omgomg. Sibeh tired siah. But I have been lying on the bed for two hours still cant sleep. Blurblur de.
So force my body to seat in front of the computer. Have been sneezing so much ah.
I already cried 13 times today because of my stupid fever's mood swing. nb. Cant control.
And my nose is super uncomfortable. T.T Omg, kill me.
Fainted when on the way to coffee shop & mom eat breakfast this morning. Is like leg no strength, whole brain dizzy dizzy kind. Whole body hothot de.
I think having bit sore throat.
Will be uploading pictures later. Rubbish in my phone.

PS: AHCHOOOO.

Believe ♥
Okay, this is actually a bracelet. Bought with Evelyn at cotton on there last time. I make it as a necklace ^♥^
Cutecute.
Anyways, I bored these days, nothing to do. Sunday Natalie Jie come my house make the computer. Can open liao. But the WIFI lost. So maybe mother will buy a new one. Sian.
Cant wait to play BS & Audition.
Andand, I was thinking to delete my first FACEBOOK account.
But I cant bear too T.T That was the longest account eh. I think I wont delete. But I will removed friends ah, only those who I know will stay ah ^^ .
And I think I got depression like that -.- . Yesterday I suddenly feel very angry, smash plates & cups on the floor and whatever. Just suddenly feel so fed up. Okay :) , that its.

Okay, Today funfun :). I woke up at 5am with big headache cause I drank wine the previous night before sleep. Zzzz. With tears.
I went to take Lrt & bus to Evelyn House there. Met Junde & Jiawei at coffee shop. They first eat breakfast. Evelyn went to Clinic.
When Evelyn & Dexter reach-ed, we stay at the coffee shop. Junde that SICKO go take video under table, Evelyn& Me leg there. Fuckfuck. And all those sick things ah.
Then we took 174 to Orchard. Run a BIG ROUND then reach scape. But the boys already face black, sleepy sleepy that face. LOL. Then Junde buisong liao lor. Go Mrt take train go liao.
Then the rest of us decide(Idea by Evelyn) to go PRAWNINGGGGGG, Evelyn is fun. Okay anyway we when there. JiaWei half way run away, CAUSE IS TOO BORED.
Dexter & Evelyn & Me, 1HOUR, 3Prawns only. But we then go BBQ it. The counter give us alot free prawn, but I eat two(Evelyn&Dexter neh eat) Then give back the prawn liao.
Then we went Ang mo kio the shopping mall, Eat sushi, Cotton on, there seesee buybuy. After that we went see shoes(With sleepy Dexter) But I have no money left, I borrow money from Dexter to buy shoes. ARGH. Sian diao.
Then all of us go take MRT. Is about 6pm liao. Dexter straight go Jurong MRT. Evelyn & I alighted on CCK, we going Lot 1 de Cotton on buy.
First we go eat Macdonald. Chat alot of crap! AND NO MAYO & CURRY SAUCE :( . Then we go buy clothes lor. Then go home :)
THATS IT.

When to meet Evelyn, Hoong Feng & Chun enn at Batok Mrt at 12pm.
Then when to eat Subway with Evelyn for Breakfast+Lunch. Yumyum.
Then we went to bought nail polish. After that, we went to see contacts lenses, I bought a grey one. My degree is 275 T.T OMGGGGGG. After that we went to SINGTEL there. Walkwalk, talktalk, then Evelyn feel unwell so she go home. Then I go staircase sniffsniff* . Then go home.
Will meet Evelyn&others tomorrow :)!

步步惊心

第一最好不相见，如此便可不相恋。
第二最好不相知，如此便可不相思。
第三最好不相伴，如此便可不相欠。
第四最好不相惜，如此便可不相忆。
第五最好不相爱，如此便可不相弃。
第六最好不相对，如此便可不相会。
第七最好不相误，如此便可不相负。
第八最好不相许，如此便可不相续。
第九最好不相依，如此便可不相偎。
第十最好不相遇，如此便可不相聚。
但曾相见便相知，相见何如不见时。
安得与君相诀绝，免教生死作相思。

This poem goes deep through my heart.
Deepdeepdeepthroughmyheart.

♥Brave couple, Dangerous place, Beautiful hug♥
I been watching this picture for a long time, staring at it. I wonder what is their feeling when standing there.
Today I found out something. It makes my heart bitter. I go through it for so long, seeing for so long. But.. why it turn out like this? I pain for the person. I cant believe it. I scared that when that person found out all the things, the person will blame me for not telling him. I feel like betraying him. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry.

Woahwoahwoah.
What to say, well, finally going to use your name and scold? Bitch? Who are you scolding? Me? Funny ah, who bitch in the first place de? Since in Facebook Message you dont admit. Then i will let other people see, see who will believe you.
Okay, So started at one fine day(blahblahblah) I went to my private blog,
www.th-lovesgone.blogspot.com. ( Now is not private anymore. ) And saw at my Tagbox this comment (Picture below.)
At first, I thought it was just a funny prank. But weird at the name. So I reply it a ( ._. ) .
THEN, I went to my second blog, www.th-darkones.blogspot.com (Have deleted.) I saw this comment.(Picture below)
At first i stared at this comment, and what i think is "OH, finally got someone post bad things about me on my blog" (Cause no ones ever did that, and i quite sad about it.) So i was kinda excited.
However, I find that is the same person who has comment in private blog. See the time at both tags. FIRST THOUGHT of mine is "SAD" Cause i only invited few person i know. And quite close. SECOND THOUGHT "Stupid." Forget to log off blogger.com is it, want to bad things also dont dare.
Then Started to find out who did it. So i go check who i have invited.
1.Evelyn, (I strike off, Cause she wont do this kind of low life thing. If she wants, she will just write out her name.)
2.HoongFeng.(At first suspicious, but that night he just break up with his girlfriend, wont have mood& wont so low life like he say after that.)
3.Jennifer.(Suspicious number2)
4.Jess.(Strike off, She cant use computer until so late.)
5.XiouQi(Strike off, same as Evelyn.)
So, Half cheat half serious, I lied to Jennifer that i only invited three person, I know is she do one. In all progress she keep wthwthwth, she didnt she didnt she didnt.
But I more sure is she did le. Cause at the 2nd picture above, that person also got write wth. But she still dont admit. So, I asked my sister for help. And give her my cbox account. Ask her to go track the IP address.
My sister is a IT whatever Pro.
She said that Jenn & the "One who no guts to write their name" the IP address is the same, Using same Starhub Cable for the web. And Is from Singapore, TohtuckRoad there.
ALL the six person, only two live near TohtuckRoad, Evelyn&Jenn, But ofcourse not Evelyn. So, not Jenn still who ?
So I PM-ed Jennifer all those evidence I found out, and tell her dont let her see me again. Oh, and one of my friend go in my acc and scold her lowlife, she think is me, so she PM-ed me back scold me no life and saying my English fail. Awwww, so bad :( I rather no life then low life ah. English? Now what world liao, English need so good for what? Know what is SINGLISH mah? And the most angry part is she also say I go back Msia then no need see her liao.
Well, cursing me back Malaysia? Nahh, I sure will meet you de. You wait can le :) . Andand she seem like didnt reply de "Evidence part" I listed to her. Keep saying me no life?
I dont want to write this post de. But at the first picture. She actually scold me a bitch, lifeless bitch. Ayeaye, in the whole conversation in the FACEBOOK message i never used bitch all those kind to scold you leh.
And whose the bitch here ah ? No guts ah ? Got evidence also no guts ah ?
If you feel my post irritating then dont come my blog see lah, you also dont go see your blog de meh? Sibeh irritating mah. Come say me for fuck? And scold me bitch? Dont go see your suey face meh ? Nb.
I dont know why you come my blog to say those things(First two pics), But maybe because I comment on your pictures that I think you no wear bra in that picture. If you are angry about THAT, I say sorry here, but you have to get clear. I ask you in a FRIENDLY&JOKE tone. So you fucking no need do those thing de. But you just fucking do that.
Really, dont let me see you.

Found this picture online, is 100% true one. It is too beautiful too be real. I want to be inside a scene like this. It will be nice.

These day is like sleep, wake, computer, tv. Blahblahblah. Dont think i very happy about it. I going to die! OF BORED. Got computer so what? BORING. Got TV so what? BORING. Got food so what? BORI... ehhh, I like! But thats not the problem, the problem is, I GOING TO DIE, BORED DIE. Kinda sad, cause I want to scold people also no chance. Because that person just dont reply me. Aiyayaya, No fun. Guilty mahh. Still there keep WTHWTH. Sekali next time she will say something like because I keep say is she do one, she explain also no use so dont reply me those kind. Maybe. Last fun also gone le. Okay, thats it.

Tomorrow is 11/11/11,
In china, a lot of people say is the day for singles. It is made up by young single people, proud that they are still single on this day. 1/1 is small singles day, 11/1 & 1/11 is medium singles day, 11/11 is big singles day. LOL. Is very funny, i check online, for the festival they made a big poster on the street writing,"Pleading for truth" "Pleading for money" "Pleading for feeding" "Pleading for love" "Pleading for sex". So cute :). I dont know Singapore got this a not. LOLOL.

PS: not going to private this blog le.

I going to forget how to smile. I mean, my face still can smile, but my heart. I tried, I tried to forget. I tried to live like nothing happen. But everytime i read chinese novels. At funny part, I laugh laugh, and suddenly cry. I very scared. I scared I will used to it. I scared it will become a habit. I scared everytime I laugh, my tears will suddenly drop down. HAHA. It won't. It won't become a habit. Cause I say so. I want to be happy. I want to laugh through my whole life.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA.

PS: 我都快忘记怎样微笑了.

Later going back Malaysia. Eh.. Yeah. I dont know i will be back or not. Maybe yes. Maybe no. Need to think a lot things when i back in Malaysia. See if i am coming back or not. A lot times i go through so many things make me sad, despair etc etc. I thought i have grown up. But, eventually i never. I still as selfish, childish, stupid, brainless, at all. Although i want to just "disappear", there is things i cant let go. Not cant bear to let go, but to selfish to let go. So, If I at Malaysia decide to let go.. I think i wont come back ever again. So i wont ache so many times. I am a strong girl, and i know it. But maybe even i let go, I will also try to come back, at least finish my studies, If i had the chance. Maybe this is the last post i write from Singapore. Maybe. I will be MIA-ing Facebook, Twitter, Formspring, MSN, etc etc.

PS: BYE. Dont miss me too much :) ... Yeah.

Gonna write a story. There goes:

There are two friends, One person & Nobody.

When one person playgames,
Nobody play with him.
When one person sleep,
Nobody sleep with him.
When one person eat,
Nobody eat with him.

And then and then and then...

THE END.

一个人, 干净利落.

Okay, I am being weird, I really so ashame of myself. Why am I thinking all those things? Dont misunderstood me, I am NOT THINKING ABOUT SEX. Anyways, why will I feel a pain in my heart. OMG, I thought the person I like is not him? Why the feeling so familiar? ARGH :/ . I think i am imagining things, yeah yeah. Should be imagining things, BUT WHY THE FUCK IS HIS FACE KEEP APPEARING IN MY HEAD. NB, CB, KNNBCCB. FUCKFUCK.

GETOFFMYHEAD YOU BASTARD.

I DONT WANT TO LIKE YOU.

ARGH ARGH.

GO AWAYYYYY.

I rather be blind. I rather cant see anything. Is better then knowing every lies so clearly. If you want to lie, continue lie on, why showing me all the truth again? You take me as a three year old kid ah?

痛太多次, 就习惯了.

Okay, Yesterday my mom birthday.

THE END.

Okay, I just remember that exam is coming, not for me, but for my friends :D. So, wish you guys good luck for the bloody exam ;). The picture above read out all of you the mind right? HAHA.

JIAYOU JIAYOU !!!!

Stop thinking stop thinking.

Argh. I am JEALOUS !
I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school. I want go school, i want go school.

Ohmy, Seriously, Why am i so kind? People dont treat me like how i treat them, I still ..?
FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK.

One day, I will get back things that suppose to be mine.

One day, Daxiong grown up, Doraemon cant hold his hand anymore :(

Stress, go away

Currently mood is okay, I found out that if i dont go think of those "Whatever Stress" thing, my mood will be normal, and not so easily uncontrol my emotions or suddenly cry like that. SO, Happy Kohkoh :) .


Some things, I only can take it as memory.
Some people, I only can take it as passer-by.

Today have a long talk or maybe,, quarrel with my mother.

Started on why i hate my mother's friend. Then until me. About my friend. I told her in my life, there is only few person i willing to sacrifice my life for, the person not her, not my sister or brother but my friend.

Cause in family this kind of thing, i already totally give up, all of you guys already force me to the end. And, the only thing until now i live is actually because of friendship, only this thing. Then my mother says, we are young, childish, we dont know who are the people we can thrust. But she dont know, I, I am alot alot mature, and i am sure about it. She also say why only for these few friends, she say i only 14, my life still got a long way to go.

Listen until this part, i dont know whether to cry or laugh. Then I say or maybe shout to my mother about i everyday stay at home she dont let me go out, how could i know new friend? If i still have no school to go, forever in my life, i have no chances already. Because, if i cant go to school, i cant know new friend, i need go back malaysia, and stay in that big house, maybe,, forever.

Some people treat you good, because you treat them good.
Some people treat you good, because they know how good you are.

These few days i have been reading a Novels. NAISE BOOK ! This book is being make to a show. I AM WAITING FOR IT! :D .

And i really want to slap my mother -.- She is fucking unreasonable, and she is a fucking liar. Only know how to threaten people. Childish. I rather die then listen to her. Tmd. Born me so what? Half of my life she throw me to child care, grandma, father's friend. I.. I REALLY ALREADY CANT CONTROL. One day i really will kill ! What i want actually is easy family. A father A mother and Sister brother. Everyday when i come back from outside, we eat dinner together. But.. :( WTF. Actually only want write what i hate about my mother, but write until so sad -.- KAO.

Be good enough to forgive someone, but don’t be stupid enough to trust them again.

2 Nights no sleep, because watching BLEACH & 步步惊心,, My dark circle is getting darker, :( . But until now i still not tired. DONT TELL ME,,, I ... Actually.. IS... A ... SUPER WOMAN ?! LOL . JOKE! Anyways, kinda sad :( . NOT SAD, but like something stuck at the chest there.

Someone told me before:

When you can't remember why you're hurt, that's when you're healed.

But i remember SO CLEARLY :( And is getting clearer and clearer. I want cry but i wont. Because,,
Even there is thousands of reason in life to make me cry, I still have to find a reason to smile. Because this is life, The only thing I can do is make myself stronger.

Wish I think to much.

Already so late.. 3:19am . Dont know why, sitting in this dark room, flashing a lot of memories.
曾经的 朋友.
曾经的 欢笑.
曾经的 快乐.
曾经的 美好.
曾经的 梦想.
Friend.
Laugh-ness.
Happiness.
Good-ness
And... My dream.

Sometimes i thought i already..uh.. how to say... uh, mature. I thought i already grown up. But HAHAHAHA. I still so childish. Crying for all those stupid things or nothing. Sometimes i also dont know why i suddenly cry, even songs makes me cry. Because of the lyrics? Today i cry again, cause because of 家, 是每个小孩的梦想. Lyrics. I cry, well not really cry. Just tears suddenly come out. The feeling.. urgh. Home? I have one. But.. i rather i dont have.

Actually i not that kind of person that is very.. uh.. I like happiness. But i love quiet. I like to be alone but, i felt lonely. I like clean, but i love black. A lot of things, I REALLY JUST FUCKING DONT UNDERSTAND.

WHY..

WHYWHYWHY.

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

Went shopping with Evelyn yesterday at Jurong Point. And we went Sakae Sushi eat :D . Is FUN. EXCITED. AND SCARED(yeah, idk why .) . Anyways. Evelyn bought Two clothes one short one belt :). As for meeee, One short one clothes one belt . UHHHHHHHHHHH . Somehow.~ Very. uhhh. SHY. LOL . AND FUN .
My DaJie Come singapore today :) . Finally got back Laptop ~ . WOOOH . YEAH (Y) . First thing i do is on BLOG write :D . Long time neh write.

23th July

Went to CCK Meet RoystonErzi then take Mrt to Batok Meet BoJun, Royston Call Shen poh and VULGAR all come out, tell him faster come to meet them :D HAHA. Laugh like fuck. Then he came. Slack in Mac with them for awhile then JamesDaddy came, WITHOUT THE SUPER FUCKER FATPIG ! :( . So I curse Kimchi , Curse curse curse :D . Then go take 173 to Timah with JamesDaddy, RoystonErzi, BoJun, Shen Poh. We slack around Evelyn house there. AND FINALLLYYY She came :D. Then we go to BTPS funday lor. Sawed QiuYa, Liping, Jiawei, Fabian, Qiwei & more. LMAOs. Then walk around then decide go Clementi buy Koi. While waiting for bustop outside school, Sawed a girl who wear very epic to the funday, Realised it is ZoenTay. LMAOs. Last year she wer like artist HAHA. Anyways, Went to Clementi with Evelyn, James, Royston, BoJun. Then buy finish Koi, BoJun go meet his others friend. And the rest of us take 175 to WestCoast.

We sit at the rock there chitchat. :> . With Royston, the conversation seem funny :D . Then it is so hot that we went MacSonald sit. Eateateat, take pictures, Chat, Laugh, Facebook, Checkin. All all all those. Then we went out again. Royston and Evelyn went to climb the alot rope thing with slide the. I didnt climb, i just walk up the slide and cheated :D . Then Evelyn veryveryvery scared LALALALA. Then climb to the higher slide and slide. After that we went to play others thing, James walk to the Sea there. Then we play play play. SHUANG~~! HOT. Then we went to joined James seat at the rocks there. Listening. Then i suddenly felt, my life is better. Then HOT until cannot went to Mac seat again. When Royston know Jess coming, he was like "okay, wait untill she come then we HELLO JESS, BYE. " Cause we are going home liao . Then until end we went home. Take 176. Thats all :)

PS: ACTUALLY I WAS GOING TO SLEEP BUT I FORCE MY SELF UP TO WRITE THIS POST.

Until I am dead, you wont be alone :D . Thats what friends for.

6:33pm

22th July

Went to Queens'Dessert with Evelyn, Royston, Bo Jun and Shen Poh. Eat eat eat, Chat chat chat, Play play play. About 3pm, we went buy bubble tea and slack around the staircase, after that i went take 174 with Evelyn otw to Kimchi's house. Okay, I admit when i saw Evlyn with her other daughter and grandson i very Jealous -.- . TMD, HE TOTALLY FORGET HE SAY GIVE ME TWINS. And forget my Birthday. Wanna cry but pride make me stop :) . Then play with mini cars. HEHE, i like baby like that. Then CeciliaMommy come, so we back to normal. Then about six, I, Evelyn, and CeciliaMommy go take 174, Evelyn went home. Eat dinner with CeciliaMommy in Quesn'sDessert. Then we seat outside de staircase and listen to music. Went home after that ~


The rest of my life or until i am dead ?

10:45pm

21th July.

When to bubble tea shop meet Evelyn and Jess :D . Then we went to Hut, and Disiao HoongFeng Daddy and his Girlfriend Rachel :D So Cute~~~! Rachel's ear Blushing. Then we listen to music and then Jess went home. After awhile, I and Evelyn go to Queens'Dessert Eat GongZaiMian and LoMaiKai. Naiseeeeeeeee. After that we go Westmall go borrow money. And play Facebook on Mac. Then we go buy BubbleTea After it. Naissse Drink . Walkwalk to the Blk620 the carpark there. Chat with Evelyn alot things :D. Heart to Heart talk. We lie down on the floor looking at the sky :D . Cooling. I also understand alot things from Evelyn. HEHE. About 6pm we went home :D Meeting Tomorrow and i will clear things with Kimchi.

To 2People.
Eh, Mr, Dont think too much can or not. Talk to your girlfriend, seat infront of your girlfriend means he like her, you too sensitive or what. Say got proof, what proof? Sending love letters ? Or what ? Disgust me leh -.- . Everytime no trouble create trouble. And making Couples want break break like that -.- Fucking buisong you .

And Miss, Okay i know your boyfriend brainwashed you. But please think before you conclude oh yes that guy like me or not -.- You say he keep looking at you not his girlfriend so he like you, how do you know he looking at you ? Are you looking at him too ? So you like him ? LMAOs. Say alot things i dont know ? In you saying he keep looking at you i already know you two think too much -.- .

Thats it.

20th July My Birthday <3

The day before my birthday, i never thought i will be happy, I thought Kimchi Family will be there. I thought the people who will accompany me on my birthday is you guys. When i step out of my house to go meet Evelyn they all, I thought i will be meeting Kimchi Family. LOL. Obviously i am wrong. When i reach BasketBall Court Hut there, Evelyn and Royston pull me aside let me cant see what others were doing, but i know KimchiFamily is not there, Because i cant see Big size people there. About 10mins they pull me to the Hut there. On the table, it was a Cake. Wow, Thats my first reaction. Take pictureeeee. Smash Cake on Jennifer. HEHE :X . Then they give out the present, it was a BRA. I WAS WTF, serious ? I thought Evelyn was kidding LOL. C80 I where so big X( . Then we play True or Dare, then about 4pm we went to Blk620 Carpark and play Flour, Chasing each other. BOO. HAHA. After there is no flour left we seat down at the carpark chatchat, listen music, then Claudia go home first, Followed by Jennifer~ Then we went to KFC eat. Family Feast $29.90 NICE FOOD. FULL AND NAISE. Then Steffi Gone home and Hoongfeng gone home after that :) . The left of us go back to The hut there about 8pm alreadyy :> Then went home. It was tired but FUN :D .

I will never forget 6person forever. People who celebrate my birthday :D .
Evelyn, Claudia, Steffi, Royston, Bo Jun, Hoong Feng. Thanks :D .

Awhile more to my birthday, to 20th July. I thought i will be excited, happy like fuck. But no, not a single happiness LOL. Weird right :D. Maybe, Maybe because i am growing, becoming and adult. HAHAHA. I am thinking about my past, my memories, the good and bad, happy and unhappy. I will choose to grow up. Because i want to protect those, i cannot protect now the person. Like my mother, in her entire life, she stand on the top and fall to the bottom. I want to protect her and my friends.

Alot of people say before, When they are a child they wish so much to become a adult, to touch those underage cannot touch de. When they started becoming teenager, they wish they go back when they are small, young and no nothing. Pure. Thats the word. I was like that. Thinking why i cant smoke, why cant drink beer, why cant this, why cant that. And then i found out, those adults can do the things, Teenage can, is just want or dont want. It just will destroy your entire life.

快快长大..Joreen.

Dont know why i so piss for -.- . Fake until like this. Scold people also wont go see own mirror.

I'm a liar because I won't tell you everything. I'm stupid because sometimes I'm wrong. I'm ugly because sometimes my face isn't perfect. I'm a pushover because I like making people happy. I'm a loser because I'm not friends with your group. I'm fake because I'm too nice. I'm weird because I'm not like you. I'm fat because I eat when I'm hungry. I'm clingy because I don't like to be alone.Im sorry for being myself.

Actually, I am not sorry at all.

I dont know but it seems life a dream..No, Nightmare. My dream, my everything is gone. Now. Gone. Gone.Gone. Not sad at all, at start cry, but after that no, no nothing at all. The feeling is like despair. Already no hope. Why sad for ? :D . HAHA.

A memory last forever, never does it die.

Andand, I super hate bitches who status keep emoemo, say they slit here slit there, cry here cry there, want die want die like that. Ya, i did write those kind of status to get attention before, but now i then see how discusting, fake, i was before. And juniors from primary school asking me who i stead before, her stead, still say she P4 stead with a guy from french then french kiss with him -.- Like very show off like that. Fake. Get a life la bitch. And some people there jealous because of her boyfriend somehow "closer" to me like that. Although I never talk to the girl before -.- Gossip here gossip there. Younger then me so what, knn. My patience got limit. If you jealous you talk to yourself, no need go tell your "sister" . And gossip around like i want steal your boyfriend.

Today was kinda fun ? Spend all my money T.T I went to met Evelyn, Jess, Jennifer, James, JiaWei today . And went to Bukit Timah CC for the whatever speech. It was interesting, and fun. The most impression i have is to a Female Police Officer. The topic is Robing Rich and give to the poor, She did not agree to it as her job is a police. And is funny everybody is laughing :D . And more and more ? Oh, starting of the Toast Master thingy, We each of them was given a piece of paper and write whatever things on it and say the connection to speak. I wrote Dream, as i was thinking about my dream to be a famous singer or whatever, but i run to the back so i didnt say out my mind. Cause i was kinda nervous? And there is no connection in Dream and to Speak. So that is. Quite fun today anyway :)

Yesterday was much fun :) . Went to Lot 1 meet Evelyn & Chun enn . Seehhh. Then Chun enn went home. I and Evelyn went to Shopping :) Cotton on Buy Clothes :) . Keep changing and changing :D . Then we went to Clementi Mall :D We eat KFC then went to buy Koi :D . NICE . Meet Nik :D. And then went to Cotton on :D . Change Change Change Choose Choose. Evelyn not enough moneyy~ Called Leonard down to lend money xD . But in the end still havent buy LOL . Then went home. MY PHONE IS AT EVELYN THERE :( . Thats all :P .

I am happy :) Thursday, went to fishing with KimchiDaddy, CeciliaMommy, JamesBaichi, JessCutie, FreddyKe ai, LeonardGaoren. WOOHOOO (Y) . Fun you know ? :) . But no fish ah :( Then the ppl go give us smal small fish :D . Mine die :( . Friday, went Westcoast Park with same group of people without LeonardGaoren. LOL. Going become alamelu. :) . We fly kite, seat infront of the sea. Singsong (Y) I love there. :) . Yesterday went Westcoast Park with CeciliaMommy, JamesBaichi, JessCutie. :) Oh fun too :) . Stay there till late late, draw on sand those kind :) I in love with there. Thats all :)

I so Stupid. I know is a trap, i carefully dont drop in, but i jump in myself. WTF. How.. Very confused ehhh. I cannot. Wo bu ke yi. Now are good. But, i making myself deeper in the trap. I dont want to make the history repeat again. I HATE IT . 白痴.

想我还是不够成熟 还达不到你的要求
我真的没有想的太多 只是怀念 你走以后
离开 难道真的是解脱 难道真的要试过几次了以后才懂
倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头 决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过 笑着和你挥挥手

Haiz. Two days bo go home lur... Wonder how is my mom. Will she worried? No she wont.. Never.. But this two days i laugh alot :D Credits to two people :D . ZaiZai and Leonard. Funny how i get to sleep in their house :> I 16 years old :P . Korean ppl :D . Parents at Australia. HAHAHAHAHA. Cute sehh . I saying myself :) . I just wish everything will be fine :).

Today was fun, except for a bitch who came across my line :) . Went to Bukit Timah CC help my Mother volunteer, uhh kids. Earn $20 dollars. Go meet friend :). One of my friend de friend, don't know what name start to kp me -.- . Say because i Malaysian so school kick me out, say i use Malaysian attidude in Singapore school. -'- . My problem she cares for what lurh. knn, if she not my friend's friend, i give her slap uh. Then i not happy, went to meet Huiling :) . Eat in QueenDessert. And then to Frolick eat. Picture, snapsnap :D. Then we went WestMall turn around, hahas. Then went to Staircase there listen music, singsong, snipsnap picture :) . i miss her :> . Went home about 8plus. Funfunfun. Ahh, looking forward to tomorrow :D . (Y) .

PS:Uh. I malaysian so what? You say because I malaysian so I kena expel, you say I use malaysian attidude in singapore school. Wey bitch, please ah, I four year old come singapore until now. I already forget about what malaysian things. You don't know then don't there kp.

Woops :D . My stomach cramp pain like fuck when i was on the way to meet Cecilia Jie :/ . But Cecilia Jie treat me good good :D . Help me put noodles on the scoop when i have no energy to take chop sticks. And i drink eat medicine :) . Then we went boonlay slack :) . With Cecilia, Evelyn, Jennifer. HAHA. Watch a Snake movie >~< . Scary but touching :> . Then when clinis take MC with Cecilia. HAHA. Macdonald after that. Then went homee, WOOHOO. Wished for tomorrow comecome.

HAHA, See that shoe? Cecilia's :D. Currently a Cecilia's house with Qi & Cecilia. Watching White Chicks :D. Just now we went to the shop beside Frolick. Yeahee. There is Cheap&Nice Food there. Will be going there tomorrow again :). Thats all.

Currently at Cecilia Jie's House :) . With Cecilia, XiaoQi, Cheryl & James . Watching Dracula :D . Below 18 no seee. Scary Uhh . Blood Blood. HAHAS . Actually today want go Chestnut Drive de. But the Fucking MsChua Don't [ick up My fucking Call. Knn, So today dont go. Before go to Cecilia Jie's house we went to Frolick eat :). Yummy. Then go her house, ICECREAM . Then SingSong in Cecilia's Room, :P . Later pei Cecilia go take MC . WOOHOO !~ Playplay. Zombie :/. 怕怕. XiaoQi Scared scared :D . HAHAS .

Sniffffff, i been cheated by my mother :( . She say today give me 40dollars de, only give 20dollars, ahhhhh :( . I still need pay cheryl the lenses moneyyyy, moneyyyy. I want monnneeeyyyyy! Uhhh, I going to have sore throat uhh, my throat very unwell :( . So today never go out.. Tomorrow go Chestnut Drive Secondary School uhh :( . Nervous, nervous >~< .

I thought is difficult to forget you, but actually, is really very easy. You should be relieve bah.. With me not loving you. Forgive me i not mature.
不爱你了.我以为忘记你很难.其实,要忘记你,很容易很容易:)我只是一个需要爱的小孩,原谅我不够成熟.

Yo, Currently at ahgor house using his computer . Now happy. 100% HAPPY. Because she kena disowned. Please la, whole group no one her stays, even ErZi . But now i w0nt hate her la . YES . AH yes !

Sniff, heya, LONG TIME NO POST le. Two more days to Science Exam. _l_ Quite scared siah.. Acids&Alkaline Acids&Alkaline Acids&Alkaline. Wtfff. Evelyn's birthday comingggggg. No money buy present! No present for her :D. LALALA.. Ah, Today MOTHER's DAY. Ytd go JP with Evelyn buy present liao ._. Broke diao liao. AHAHA. Ltr need study study. So long no school, will die de! :P

PS: 我很想你:/

Studying now :) . Woohoo . I so guai ! Yeah hee. Ah. Have so many things happen these days :( a little scared. Scared that everything will change . Haiz . >< . Ahhhhh. Stupid stupid >< .
Ps: Don't get it wrong , i didn't smoke, i take the picture funfun :)

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♥没有我在的日子...你过的好吗...
♥没有我在的日子...要好好照顾自己
♥没有我在的日子...要记得吃饱饱
♥没有我在的日子...要比我幸福
♥没有我在的日子...要比我还要还要长大
♥没有我在的日子...你幸福我不会笑你
♥没有我在的日子...你不幸福...我一定会嘲笑你
♥没有我在的日子...要记得一吃三餐
♥没有我在的日子...请忘记有我的存在

Ah:) happy . Quite happy ~~ currently at bubble tea shop. With evelyn jess Jenn :-)

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Plain life .

I have a plain life . Everything seems okay but something is changing behind it.. What makes it change ? Haiz ... Just wish everything is alright .

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Seriously. I don't want to live . Nobody cares me.

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I not happy.. I seriously not happy. since i join, i get more laughs.. but my heart is crying more.. I dont understand. Why rather believe in others then yourself ? .. Friends.. Is my only hope. and i dont wish my hope get destroy.. i really cherish this friendship, with all my heart. but why?.. it since so far now.. my hopes.

Is you say de, if need you call you.. now i need help, you hide. IHATEYOU luh. dont regret. DONT REGRET. I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! what i do wrong. what did i do. why you like this. I only want to make things get better. i want my life back. 没遇见你就好了.. You dont like me then say, no need hide from me. JUST SAY. I.Hate.You.

I really love you.
Love so pain eh...I really love you but you don't believe. Ya, i admit at the start i am only just playing.. But i starting to more and more like you.. Even love you. But you don't believe, it makes me regret, regret at first place i because of lonely fake love you.... You now don't believe me.. You dont give me a chance... Is it the love i gave you make you too tired? 是你给了我希望, 也是你毁了我对你的爱.. I hate you for not giving me a chance, I hate you for all the gentle you gave her, I hate you for making waiting for nothing. I hate you so much. But i love you more... I have once try to give up, try to take other people as you. I tried to like other people. Every night i told myself, I don't love you anymore.. But the more i tell myself, the more i like you. I just can't resist. I really don't understand, is it i don't worth your love? 我到底哪里不好? Should i let go of you? i wish i could.. If you can walk into my heart, You will cry... Because inside my heart there is full of the sadness you gave me.. If i can walk into your heart, I will also cry... Because inside your heart there is full of your don't bother... I am so stupid, I thought i got a chance, I thought you will like me someday.. And it is only my wishful thinking..

Quite busy these days.. I really want to give up.. today have E3 gathering. not much people going >~<. we go LANLANLAN play blackshot & others. quite fun, blackshot :). thats all.

No wound, but heart keep aching. What exactly should i do to make you understand...Everything i do, is because you...are the person i care most?

understand my heart please.

Hongster never die.

only two hours. you got another girlfr. i should be lucky that i didnt put in too much serious. thats all. have a bath today in amy jie house, COLD. 小四, 对不起啦..求你原谅我>~< COCONUT:D anyway, i cant get over him. he dont reply my message, even he know. my heart pain, lala ar lala, when will you reply my message?..

You dont love me.

yeah, i am single. i guess he is not my cup of tea. today went boonlay with jess, go pet shop meet ahkor and cecilia jie. fun? I DRANK 4small cans of coconut drinks and 2 big cans of coconut drinks. i went toilet alot of times. But its okay, you want me drink, i drink :) iloveyou.

Believe or not? believe in myself, i dont know what myself are thinking. how to believe.. if i believe, i have to wait again, if i dont believe, when it happens, i will regret. so.. should i believe or not.

Coconut drink, i am in love with coconut drink. :D 小四, I love you :) . Thanks for being there when i need you, i love you ttm man!

secrets. everyone have. say out, less stress:)

today, okok, meet Evelyn, Jennifer, Cecilia jie, Amy jie, Xavier , and AHKOR. LOL . Fun luhh. I think i trying to forget him le.

My greatest wish? i wish i can fly.

i regret to ask. i am afraid to know the answer but in the same time, i want to know, desperately. i know i get hurt, but i still want to know. stupid right? me. I know. for you, i can do anything. but you just dont understand because you never even try to. boy, you are a bastard.

liar.. you are nothing but a liar. last chance.. you also dont want me to have it. you already stab a hole in my heart, now you stab again. how can you be so cruel?! use this to hurt me you, liar. liar. liar.