LOVE ,

If you have it ,

you dont need anything else...

and if you dont have it ,

it doesnt matters much what else you have .

Todae ,
good lar,
nono ,
not reali good ,
go sch wif LYN ,
then go assembly ,
then go bck class,
then chinese ,
TALK craps sia ,
ME ofcos ...
hahahas..
then go to english lor ,
THAM AGIAINz ,
FUCK HER!!
...
then recess lor ,
MUAHAHAHAz .
JEN and LYN get $2 free..
then gogoogogoogo eat LORz..
aft tad history ,
do nothing ,
then science go labbbbbzzz...
HaHaz..
BORIN ,
....
then ME n LYN
go wif Fang ,
ROXY ,
JEN ,
REB ,
go do COW (CWO)
but me n lyn actuali no need do..
i go plyply say i oso got so get to do it lor..
we pick rubbish in classes and cafe ,
LOLz..
then they go do DC ,
ME n Evelyn slack arnd the canteen lor..
then we borrow $ frm the sec 3 guysess..
hehe...
then we go jurong safra wif LYN n JEN ,
cos need to go book KBOX room for LYN bday..
then we met DAWNIE at MRT ,
so go together lor ,
we book liao then go home ,
but hor...
i go home without them lorz..

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到底是我爱你的不够深 ，

还是我不够好？

todae ,
hhate it ..
aft eng paper ,
ms tham ask me go library ,
talk to me ,
but i vry pissss off ,
so talk untill half i stand up n walk away .
then she take me go see ms chua ,
and being nag ,
then chua call my mother ,
FUCK her lar .
then aft all tis chua go away ,
leaving me and tham .
i use hand to cover my ear ,
then she keep on talkin ,
but i cant hear .
sft a while she stops lookin at me ,
then i sleep for small little while ,
then woke up ,
Tham say some craps then go .
HATE HER ,
waste my time for 2HOURS!!!
CAN U BELIEVE IT?!!!
then go westmall there ,
they alrdy take neoprint ,
nvr wait for me .
我来学校不是因为读书，
是因为学校有朋友，
但 ，
我现在才发现 ，
我一个朋友都没有 。
Evelyn , Jennifer , Qi Fang and roxy .
then we go comic connection ,
I TRY not to cry ,
not infront of them ..
then i vry quiet until we go back to school ,
withought roxy and qifang .
then i was lieing on the table ,
goin to doze off,
the NCC GO SUDDENLY BANG THE TABLE!!
Then i cry ,
not his fault ,
i jus cant control it ,
I HATE MY LIFE!!!
then i go to busstop ,
calling my mother .
I keep on crying n crying ..
then in bus i say to evelyn .
Evelyn。。。
我们回到小时候 ， 好不好 ？
I reali hate my life now ,
i miss those time when we were small .
then we go beauty world ,
aft cryin in the bus ,
i HYPER LIAOz .
then we go happy baby there ,
evelyn buy thing for her bday.
then she oso got buy the hair spray color thingy..
we buy finish we go try ,
my hair is damn eww..
they two oso..
HAHAHAs..
then we take 173 when jennifer found out her
ez-link card gone ,
so ,
we go to the happy baby shop find ,
the she find liao lor.
then we like saying ,
becos of your card we come bk here leh ,
treat us drink lar ,
then in de end she treat us lar. .
then we eat eat eat finish go home .
FINISH ..

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朋友 ，

我们回到小时候 ，

好不好 。。

== ，

sigh ..

问情为何物 ？

我不知道 。

我不想知道 。

我只要你 。

我以为我能忘 ，

才知道我忘不了 。

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TOdae chinese exam ,

okay okay lar .

Quite easy ..

aft kana nag by cher .

IDIOTS .

曾经 ， 我是多么的爱你 。
现在 ， 我是多么的恨你 。
我恨你 。
我真的恨你 。
很恨你 。
我试过放下 ，
然后跟你做真正的。。
朋友 。
只是。。
我太恨你了 。
爱多深恨就有多深 。
Now , I HATE YOU....

Muahahaha ,
I think i cant control it ,
HAHA ,
SO i keep on
disturbing him ...
Hack CAre..
HOHOHO ,
not sure still like him ornot ,
MUAAHAHA ,
谁叫他对我很冷淡 。。
MIAO ...

Todae ,
okay okay lar ,
Muahaha ,
HEHE ,
HAHA ,
YOOHOHO ,
LOL ,
MUAHAHA .....
okay i admit i mad ..
WAHAHA ,
actuli ,
i quite sad to dae ..
Dun tell you ,
HEHE .. .. .. BYE...

Todae ,
i run home ,
without stopping ,
1km .
bare footed ,
alittle bit pain .
not much ppl on the road .
cos is at night.
7pm..
I ran home ,
i happi ,
cos when i run ,
i think about nth ..
nth ..
not him atleast ..
i feel happi .
very..

todae ,

i ,

In Lan now ,
Wif Evelyn...
haha ,
waste of money^^
agree...
hehe
haha
i m mad..
yah...
go lot 1 wif evelyn atfirst
eat KFC
....
then go take neoprint nice^^
haha
then shop around,
i think i got an idea wat to
but for evelyn on her birthdae^^
hehe
keep it secrets..^^

wake up in the mornig ,
preparing going to tution ..
then...
after tution ,
come library ,
to read some chines novels ,
then use computer..
blogging ..
okie...then ,
i was like sms my friend ,
Hui ling...
and there was some part like tis,
as i was asking wich boi she like ,
ME: haha... so the boy wat name ?
She:kenny,i think..
then i was thinking there was
a boy name kenny in our
primary school ,
and he sucks...
Me: ha ha ha ha... the name same as the primary one.
^^ Roflmao..
She:Sorry hor . the boy is sec3
then i was like wtf ?
why say sorry to me?
ME: i say the name is same.LOL.
ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha
ha x100
She:ha ur head
Me:Roflmao
She:Wat is tat
Me: i yesterday tell u liao.
She: GOT MEH?
Me:Got ... unless u not hui ling
...or yesterday not hui ling...
She:i dun rmb
then i was like telling her the meaning lor..

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dunnoe..
wat it is like ..
now...
i can understand ler..

back frm school ,
erm not reali school ,
bck frm arnd the school ,
slacking arnd the basket ball court ...
come bck by evelyn ' fathers car ,
then come home ..
Today X-COUNTRY is cancel ,
sad ....
the stupid rain...
I HATE IT!!!
i wan run mah . . . ..
HAHA ....
I not lazy hor ...
ROFLmao ~~~
Bye lar ..

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你该高兴吧 。。。

我不再理你了 。。。

不再烦你了 。 。 。

不该让自己、

靠得太近怕我没什么、

能够给你爱你、

也许要很大的勇气只怕我已经、

爱上了你也许有天、

我会情不自禁想念只是、

苦了自己爱上你是我、

情非得已。

认识你、

爱上你、

放弃你、

忘记你、

最后、

结局是、

I wan to giv up on him ler....
Because he dun like me mah...
But i will still continue like him lar
juz wont disturbin him animore
iwan to die but no courage
iwan to cry but cant cry out
iwan to shout no sound come out

我爱你 ，

错了吗？

two years ago same situation,
juz differ person ,
differ place .

I Love You
----------------------------
todae ,dunoe wad , a little bit emo then ok then emo . .
Maybe becos of HIM ....

就算不爱我

不可以不理我

I .....
reali....
like....
you.....

we hav english 4 1st period
and we like talk vry seldomly leh...
Cos a little bit sad .....
Dun wan to disturb him
why?
dunoe .
Juz dunwan to disturb him .
not todae,
and not for forever .

and we have our maths . .. .
normal ,
as usual .
still vry noisy ..
then recess . . . eat lar
but wif alittle lonely ..
Then , wad ar?
erm...

forget...Sciene?
maybe...
Hot as usual...
Seeing him frm far ..
Knowing he will be always tat far frm me..


Then , history . . .normaal normall...
Then maths test , a little pissed off. ..
Then HMT ,
I first time ,
in my life ,
HATE Chinese .....

Then go to basket ball court ,
Wif evelyn doin smthing ...
i think evelyn is regretful..

Then go home.....

Yesterday it was quite ok , i got second to the bus stop , jennifer 1st Evelyn last , Then we go schoool together .. .. then we go class put bag then go to canteen . Then Blah~~~~~~ Thn go bck class have reading thingy then maths . . . THen english but ms tham spend all the time nagging nagging n nagging . .. .then recess we go canteen saw mr chen and miss wu ... hehe .. . go to be goose berry . . .. then aft tat science . .. after that art . . .. aft tat VE , aft tat we go basket ball , but the friendly guy haent come yet , aiyo we wait lor . ... when jennifer ask the boys to lend her thh ball to shoot in one time the boy say , fuck you fuck off shut up ... smthing like tat , then evelyn vry piss off . .. . then i for got . .. then i just come home after plying lor ... tats all bye...

Todae , do nth , ply computer , then do homework , at abt 6pm , we go to make specs for me , tuesdae then can get .. then we go buy top-up card for my HP .. . then come bck home lor ,then i do maths home work , rushing at last minute , then trick my mom go out to but food , then secretly use computer , LOL . . .

cannot use the computer , mum confiscate , so come library to use lor .. yesterday scolded by Vice principle . Then we have break for 10 mins , eat in class , hehe . . Then after the maths remedial Evelyn jennifer n I go basket ball court , we ply n ply , i shoot in 50+ ball , jennifer n Evelyn also shoot atlot . very very fun , Horhor .. . .But my mum come for the speech dae thingy , then i hav to lied to her i m the helper to ply more , so my mother go see the speech dae thingy . . . so i continue plyin , sweaty , N even get soak in rain . . . . my uniform damn dirty , so i Elephantz lend me her uniform , hehe . . then until 7pm we tae 173 go home , so fun . . but tired , then i go library borrow books then go home lor .. . . . . Then sleep . .
As for todae , go tution then come library . . .
Oh yar , actuali i fakke like Ignatius , Then now i gettin more n more like him leh , how leh ?

Yesterdae , horrible , someone frm sec2 want to jump off the building , rescue by POSTMEN , LOL .. take sm pictures of it . but , we still hav our normal lesson goin on , is juz have more things to say . well , i say i like ignatius and want stead frm him Mung kei , they all say vry Fake , ok lar , fake lar , hu tell mung kei n ignatius dun wan stead , tis movie show is too long ler lar . then , science ma , erm , okok , nth much happen . Then todae track n field cancel , then i n Evelyn slack lor , help to paint the dusbin , but obviously run away to ply true or dare wif Galvin , Evelyn , Zero n Dexter . Then they ask whi i like , isay i like ignatius , Love other ppl . MIAO~~~ , is true mah . then we ply , after tat Evelyn ,Qi Fang n i go weat mall buy ice- cream , Evelyn keep want to make sm ice cream on us -..- Then go home , do hm wrk , read chinese novel , then sleep .

大声说出你的爱！

Todae , erm , quite fun , aniwayz , go school wif joey , >< , then reach sch met evelyn , jennifer rebecca . . . then go hall sing like killing pig , then bck to class . .. erm , Do CR , ya , then , erm . . .. FOrGOT LAR . . .Juz jump to science , I was like keep asking Ignatius for Stead , LOL , So cute , i keep asking n asking , still dun hav ani answer , MIAO~~~ Mung Kei jealous . . .. LOL , Then jump to Nafa , i first , seat n reach cut Q , cut whos ar? Erm . .. . . . Forgot , aniwayz get 35 , atleast C lar, then erm . . . Standing broad Jump? 154 , C oso , unlucky sia . .. . . . Then we , sits -up wif jennifer n Rebecca ? Evelyn partner me >< , 33 , A , actuali .. .. erm cnnt say . . .Then , aiyo , pull up , 18? ya 18 , A oso not bad . . Then i saw Ignatius Lining up for sits-up , say hi to him , then the ppl behind , the sec 2 thought we cuting Q they shout us , then we shout bck DONE ALREADY LAR, So kia su one .. .. . . They we go shuttle run , 11.4 sec , A oso MIAO ~~~~ 2Cs , 3As . MUAHAHAHAHAHAHHA...ok lar go mac , they to basket ball vandalize , i write on the floor , I LIKE IGNATIUS , MUAHAHAHAHA . . .Then Evelyn N Jennifer write Smthin to . . . .Then we go home , i go home , do homework . i GUAI KIA , MUAHAHa . .. .Aniwayz , bye ,

xxxx,
Joreen

Todae okok , same as usual . ..
When i got home to do VE flyer ,
then when i m doin maths homework
Jess send me a sms smthing like tat
'The sec1 VE project do wat har ?'
I reply,
'i anihow make cheer of the title , Respect.'
then she reply,
'ok , thks'
i reply ,
'U welcome.'
then after awhile,she sent again,
' The flyer wat size?'
i reply,
'A4'
then she reply,
' ok , thks '
then i reply,
'U welcome.'
after awhile , she sent again,
'the A4 is foolscap or plain paper?'
i reply,
'cannot fooscap, plain or colour.'
then she reply ,
'Ok , thks .'
i reply bck again,
'U welcome.'
I was like WTF?
Are she goin to ask me one more time?
ok finali stop . .
i continue my maths hmwk. . .. . . . . .

爱你，我错了吗？

Todae , lots of surprise , He got new GF but juz wont tell me hu it is , bleh~~~DUn care him liao ,
miao~~~ surely in our school , i dun think is in our class , hurm~~~~ Who is it ?... Have to observe ...~~~ Todae nth to do , then i kinda rmb i got tis blog , so i come to post , i promise i will post often , I SWEAR!!!!!

结束了，当然要有一个新的开始。

幸福哪里找？哪里寻？

todae,okok,not bad,not good,go sch wif joeykoh,then go class put bag go canteen wait 4 evelyn they all...jennifer rebond her hair^^~~~then go to hall,blahblah,then CR lazy to do...then history,kao!hate tat teacher!!FCK HIM LAR!!!!!!!!then english.....blarrr......then recess................Jenni Spill the ice mocha on her skirt....then go change into bigger size..LOL...then maths,but got health checkup^^then science....then...erm....eh..music...singsingsingsingsingsingsing~~~~~I GET 'B' 4 the test....^^~~~then nid to stay bck 4 science^^HAHA!!!Then go swimming.............then go home lor.....^^~~bye~~~nth to say liao....

Todae,vry vry vry vry vry worst!!!!!okay lar , actuali nt so bad ... todae wake up at 6.07am goin to late!!!! I suppose to wake up at 5.00am.!arh.........!!!!then actuali mett joey at 6.10am but no time so tell her to go sch alone!!!!!Lazy to write,Ms tham YP nvr come n 4 the whole tis week~~~~!!!!!!^^ BYE ANYWAYZ~~~~~~~~^^

我不想长大我不要长大我讨厌长大我不想长大一点也不想我不想长大不要长大我不要长大不想长大我恨死长大我不要长大不要不要长大死都不想长大我不要长大。。。。。。我想像小时候，那天真无邪的时候。如果时间可以倒流，我宁愿不要出现在这个世界。。。我不想长大不要长大讨厌长大恨死长大讨厌长大不要。。。。。。。。。长大。。。我。不。想。长。大。

我不想长大，我不要长大，我讨厌长大，我不想长大一点也不想

waaah,yesterdae issss soososososososososo funnnnnnnnnn,yesterdae,at 1.00 i take 970 to evelyn house then we together take 157 to boon lay mrt,but hor,when we arrive we juz cant find them,so evelyn call jess,then i call edlyn,but edlyn nvr pick saddddddd...then jess say go to wat control station,we still cant find...aiyo,then i call edlyn finali she pick up saying where r we,then we goo to find,then we saw them but we make a big round to toilet then go to meeeet them..LOL~~~^^then we go to jurong safra...we play the kids maze,$18...not enough borrow...LOL~~~^^then we ply vry fun then we get seprated then DEXTER can tfind sara when saw her....He runrunrunrunrurnurnurnrunrunrurun to see her i n evelyn cant catch up sowe ply our self lor...tthen after tat jess evelyn galvin n i go buy drink,then i first go liao,then met the other half,but jess evelyn galvin cant find LOL..then we go level 2 we saw the Kbox...cheaper then maze then we singsingsinsignsignsingsingsing..........i sing the most><>

wwaaahh,todae wake up,look at the clock,3am,aya-..-,den go ply com 4 a while,until....4.30am,then yawn,bck to slp,up at 5am,down again,up at 5.10am,down again,up at 5.20am..den finali go to sch~~~^^blah blah,go to sch,put bags at class,down again,bck to canteen,accompany by ziying...then rebecca come follow by evelyn.jenni?dunnoe,maybe get chicken pox^^LMAO~~~go assembly,blahblah......then go bck class,i sing,lallalalalalalalalar~~~~~~~~~~~~then chinese~~borin>.<***then go to english,the teacher waste our 7mins recess time,ARRHRHHRHRHHRHAAHHHHRRR!!!!!!then recess lar,then history,go take photo takin^^~~~then science....then go to canteen ply true n dare wif jenni,evelyn,ohyar,jenni have cm to sch,she vomit at mornin so late~~wif jenni,evelyn,two other boii,sec3 rite?maybe lar,dun care..den jenni kiss evelyn,evelyn kiss me,den i kiss jenni^^~~~du think bad,is cheeks oni~~^^~~then go home^^~~~bye^^~~~larrlar...

hello teacher!

Hi!WENXIN!

sec2 boy come 4 our sec1 tution,nvr come for his 1.handsome hor?not my cup of tea.!!^^~~~

hello!steffi!

jia le n?

seatin on table,ohor!

Say cheese^^

jin fen lookin at jia le?

we three,jenni cute hor?!lol.

where my head ar?

roxanne n rebecca~~

Ziying n evelyn^^~~

Todae,okay okay,no difference.todae go sch,go class put bag,help zi ying oso,then went down met evelyn n jenni,evelyn is still happi abt junwei n weimeng has the same birthdae as her,15 MAY,take some picturesThen go assembly.then read chinese paper,then,wat ar?4get lar,ar,rmb again,eng,vocab test,watevr.then,um.dunno lar,skip to recess,ply com in cafe.then chinese hate it.then science,history,then HMT,secretly take pictures.And aft it go macdonald wif steffi,take some pic too.AND then i go tution oso take some pic^^~~then go home,tired~bye.

todae,veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri................borin,i rather go to sch...-.-slp,wake,ply com,watch tv,eat...repeat n repeat...sigh*...i wanna go sch~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i wan to get scolded by teahcer~~~!!!

我再也不要爱了。。。心酸啊！

我恨你,但,我更爱你...
todae,aft goin to west mall library,met jenni's 'SOTONG'muahaha..N 'SOTONG'two friends n erm..eunice?ya met eugenia n joey lim too,we actually wan to take neoprints but kana kick out cause wearing sch uniforms^^~~LOL^^~~then go to evelyn there,ply 4 awhile,i tak 970,saw joey koh..she lives near miie^^Den we go hm together...then i ply computer abt for....5HOURS!!!i jus realize!!!!okiie i wanna slp now...YAWN***GOod nitES..^^~~

我祝福你们。。。。

today quite okie....got up in 5am..ply com 4 awhile..den get rdy to go to sch^^~~go to sch.....thinkin lots of things...6hope...5joy...4hope....3truth...2hope....1truth....n him...i rmb the time i 1st met him..he is still pure tat time P2...not like now...i went to sch,halfway met shaiful,grace,jenni^^~~den Evelyn sick todae,nvr cm to sch.....sad...then assembly...then...readin our self...then go MT,N at the end get, DC frm the teacher but nvr go at the end....4got....hehheheh...then maths-.-HATE IIT!!!!then urm..yah...recess...go libary aft eating...then art...FOUNd out 2 big secrets...then history...keep askin ignatius smthin but he dun wan say...den chat wif mung kei awhile then..i realise smthin....我明白，爱一个人，却，不想，让她知道，他爱她。。。then aft sch go weat mall walk around then finally go libary to use com n write rubbish....okie!tats all...BYE^^~~

todae?normal...woke up at 5am open com..uploading the pics yesterdae i havent upload finish damn slow,download oni 5 of it in 30mins...then...go sch...met eve n jenn in canteen...then rebecca cm,jess..n 4got...go to hall...sick of it..then bck class,read newspaper......then..erm..english...common test corrections..singing对面的老师，看过来，看过来，看过来。。cause i wanna to ans teacher question-.-then...science..normal...still singing...teacher then say do i wan to sing at the morning assembly?i kept quiet,not tat i dun wan to sing,ACTUALLY I WAN!!!is jus dun wan to embarrased myself...then...oh..yah..recess....eat...eat...eat...then...erm...eh..ar.rmb,,,kana scold by principe by saying hello to every1 tat pass by our class,eve,jenni,jess,alamelu,jessie,joey koh..oso kana scold by not seating in rows...!!!then HE,normal....still as borin.den MT nice..go ava rm..got aircon..seeing 心情大动员...blah.........then cheer change to the clothes teacher ask us to bring,n reherse...then HMT okie not so borin....get 51/70 4 the HMT marks...not bad lah cause 'o'level水准...hahaha...lots of wordds dunno wat it means...then aft sch...bubble tea...bukit batok swimming complex...meet them..go hm wif jenni n evelyn..tell them hu is my pevious ex..feel relieve....then chat wif eve untl 6.45pm,then take 173 to go tution,slp through...then go hm...then ...com...then..um...bye

todae,worst still...go to school....to canteen....to hall....balah....to class....listen to teacher talk crap...go bck hall....see video...go sci lab...borin...eve n jenni use marker to draw on each other hand n legs my hand...aiya...then go cafe eat...jus find out he noe jenni lyke him^^wish then get together...GOODLUCK JENNI^^~~Den erm,,,er,,,english?er...aiya!!!4GOT LAH!!!after all those rubbish...finally..CHEER PRACTICE!!!i took lots of oicture using IBRAHIM camera...blahblah...den went home...write all this rubbish n preparing goin to tution-.-bye~~~~

一样，每天过着一样的生活。。。厌烦死了。。。

Yesterday,go to sch,on the way,met joey.k,den go sch wif her...put bags in the class go find evelyn n jennifer,in the canteen...buy green tea,nice...den go hall,sit abt 1 hr or more,cause of the stupid idoit service-learning.then go eatt,then bck again...wif a winnie a pooh in evelyn hand-.-$13...then listen 4 a while go walk to see other classes booth...blah..blah...then go bck hall...then bck class do the watever reflection,den i hav to go do student pass then i first go escape frm bubblegum...go to ica building do saw a fat black woman getting caught by police..then go hm...then...then..then...uh..bye bye
XXXX

不想放弃，毕竟，这对我而言，是个完整的一个初恋。。但，也许，放弃，可能，对彼此，都好，所以，我第一个完整完整的初恋，有个，完美，的，结局。。。。。
Today,go to sch normal,the best thing is i never fall in slp,maths-.-hate her the bubblegum-.-see her attidude i feel very very不爽 arhhh!!!!!!!!!den,history commom test i actually jus passssssss,I CANT BELIEVE IT!!!!but is true,aniway..no harm made,den recess,yummy..then science...then english..tok abt cheer i decide to wear white n pri sch pe shorts^^better den sec sch^^then pe-.-,i very不爽，abt tat teacher lor,i wan to ply badminton leh,he den tell us to ply captain ball....aft tat got wat ar?ah,VE,but we use it 4 cheer,borin cheer...move borin tooooooo,den we got our break...but i,evelyn n jennifer go west mall,actually wan to do ezlink card....but change mind,1st do the take picture....dan eat there,shoppin a little...then go hm they 2 tak 61 i tak 177,bad siah them-.-den cm home then then then,go facebook then rite all tis..den bye^^ XXXX

以前都是我看着你转身离去的背影,这次换你看我了...我会把这一眼的瞬间,当成是我初恋,永远的句点....
By终极三国(曹操)

好闷。。。明天还要留校-.-。。。好讨厌哦！高级华文，我恨你！！！！！！

我、和你你、和我是不是永远只能是平行线永远没有相交的时候如果、注定不能在一起那么、请记得、我、爱你记得、爱我

只记得记忆里的那句话‘我被全世界抛弃了’。。。

那些痛苦不可磨灭，但是我不值得为他，为这些事掉眼泪，我永远也不会  ,这次就真正的做回本分吧，做回真正的我。这一次，是真的放弃了...因为我已经不想再去爱了..我不爱你了，祝福你，一直祝福你们.... 

我以为我已经忘记他了，可我一看到她，我就想起他。忘不了他对我的伤害有多深，被封印的记忆，一下子就出现在我脑海。。。你叫我如何忘掉？如何？难不成你要我在想当年一个傻瓜伤害自己吗？！值得吗？为了他？值得吗？他，他们，男的，他们，没有一个可以相信的。。。如果早知如此，何必当初呢？！感情放得越多，到最后，被伤的最深，最深。。。我好想放弃一切，真的很想从十三楼直接跳下去。。。不过，我，没勇气。。。死。

i drank beer at the CNY eve,u see my face is red,tis is taken by my big brother..!!!haha..LOL..but i drink 5 can the nxt dae!!!!!

我们在马六甲。。。

i dun noe hu is tis i tink is the....郑和i mean the statue!!

IN MALAYSIA!!!

jUS ARRIVE IN MALAYSIA!!!!!!IN SISTER OFFICE!!!!JUS LEFT SINGAPORE,I ALREADY MISSING HIM...WAT HE IS DOIN?SLEEPING?EATING?HU NOEs??

Post before i go,tis is todae p6h gathering one of the pictures...left jenni middle me right sandy.....todae chun kang elcoms chee hwee clarence(run away in de middle of gathering)jung(run away)jia yi(run away)jennifer vanessa lim emilia(run away)delvina sandy....tats all...damn sad....

BYE!!

Goin to malaysia tonite...i wont post till nxt week...So...Happy New Year!!!!!

看到了他们，没有太多变化，还像以前。。。看着他们抱在一起，开心的笑容，让我不禁地想到以前点点滴滴的一切。我们一起玩，学习，伤心，开心，安慰过。。。看到朋友们的笑容，自己也感到欣慰了。。。。。。友谊胜过一切，甚至胜过爱情，因为爱情不可靠，一点也不可靠。。。谁没有经历过痛苦呢？但每个经历的人，在风风雨雨过后，是彩虹。。。

....感觉好幸福，当时。。。可现在。。。

怀念，想念。。。。。真渴望回到从前。。。。。

有时候每个人都以为完蛋了，怎么办，但都没想办法如何改变这个局面，我们可以操控自己的命运，你也可以。。。爱情也可以。。。可是更多人希望被命运操控，至少不会那么痛苦。。。

我曾经喜欢过一个男生五年，从我七岁开始，那时我以为只不过是玩玩，无聊，才可以去注意这个男生。但我越来越大，有自己的意识空间后，发现那不只是单纯的喜欢，那是爱。
我就这样默默地在他后面守候了五年，那是我五年级，开始叛逆，开始学坏，当然也开始迷上网络了。那是我姐姐介绍给我的网吧，我沉迷于它，几乎天天都去哪里，每天放学也去哪。突然又一次，我看到了他，他在网吧外，你猜我看到了什么？他在与一名男子抽烟，我并不介意，因为当时我也又迷上抽烟这个喜好，我很开心，但我知道我们不会有任何交谈，应为三年前应为一件事，我们都没讲话了，更何况，我再没有勇气面对他。忘了跟你说，他比我大两岁。至少我能看见他。
有一次，不知道为什么，我姐开始提供给他香烟，偷来的香烟，从我妈那里偷来的，我的那一分也给了他。我一直知道姐姐也喜欢他。当天，我偶然听见他跟我姐说他不喜欢我，我崩溃了，我明知道一直以来，我都是没机会的，可是为什么一定要用刀刺我心呢。为什么一定要那么坦白呢？当天，我用了一把刀，抵在我的手腕，我明知道很痛，但我却做了，一滴血流了下来，很痛，但，我的心更痛。。。从那天起我彻底的放手了，因为我觉得不值，为什么要为一个不爱我的人痛苦呢？当然我也不去网吧了，不想看到他，我也戒烟了，不想想到他。。。。虽然过了一年多了，手腕也因为时间久了，慢慢淡掉了，没疤了，可是那留在心里的疤都不会淡掉。。。爱情真可怕。。。

Sometimes each people all thought had been finished, how manages, but how all hasn't tried to find solution to change this aspect, we may hold control own destiny, you also may.。。Love also may.。。But more people hoped is held by the destiny controls, cannot at least that the pain.。。I have liked male student for five years, from my seven year old of start, I thought at that time was plays, bored, only then may pay attention to this male student.But I am more and more big, after have own consciousness space, not only discovers that pure like, that is a love.I like this silently waited for behind him for five years, that is my 5th class, starts the rebel, starts to fail to study, certainly also started to be infatuated with the network.That is my elder sister introduced for mine Internet bar, I sinks confuses in it, where nearly daily all goes to, every day is on vacation from school also goes.Once again, I saw suddenly he, he outside the Internet bar, you had guessed what I did see? He in smokes with a man, I did not mind, because at that time I also was infatuated with smoke this to like, I was very happy, but I knew we could not have any conversation, should be three years ago should be a matter, we all had not spoken, much less, I again did not have the courage facing him.Forgot to say to you that, he compared my tenth of a jin year old.I can see him at least.Once, why doesn't know, my elder sister starts to provide to him the cigarette, steals the cigarette, steals from my mother there, my that minute has also given him.I knew continuously the elder sister also likes him.At the same day, I accidentally hear him to my elder sister to say he did not like me, I collapsed, I clearly since knew, I all have always been do not have the opportunity, but has why certainly to use the knife to puncture my heart.Has why certainly that to confess? At the same day, I have used a knife, arrives in mine skill, I clearly know very the pain, but I have done actually, a drop of blood stream down, very pain, but, my heart pain.。。I thorough has dropped from that day, because I thought am unworthy, why had to be does not love my human pain? Certainly I did not go to the Internet bar, did not want to see he, I has also stopped smoking, does not think him.。。。Although more than a year, skill because the time has been also long, palely has fallen slowly, did not have the scar, but that kept in the heart the scar all not to be able to fall palely.。。Love is really fearful.。。

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你真狠。 我明明把心都丢了，剁成细碎通通喂进你口里，融到心里，然后一次次的糟蹋我的心…… 我的心，怕是体无完肤了
你大概已经不记得自己说过的话。没错，由你心藏深处里剥离出的记忆，也只有我一个人记得。 哭过、笑过，却只能，转身离开。 如果这样能让你开心……那就这样吧。

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hello . i am joreen koh